IF YOU SEEK-ED UP FRIDAY

woke up in the boring afternoon besides ywe` (my friend slept over at my place)..
as a routine, we showered, cooked and had our BRUCH (breakfast+lunch)..
we didn't know what to do after that.. we dunnoe whom to ask to go out either.. nang is busy with her school works, juju is sick, and rara is out for her job applications.. as ywe suggested, i tried to call a few ppl, nga tint, wint, and ko CN.. nga tint was at school he said and nga wint preparing for her presentation.. oh well, ko CN i couldn't even reach him.. i was picturing a good time with friends on friday when i don't have any class but it no longer seemed possible at that point of time.. with low-feeling hearts, ywe` and i decided to go out on our own, still..

because it would be so pitiful to spend our free friday, curling up in bed at home
because we still have each other no matter what and should accompany each other
because we both were pissed and seriously need to get out of house to refresh ourselves

we didn't even dress up. both in our tees and jeans. since ywe` is looking for a tenant at her house and needed a phone card, we went to peninsula, thinking of advertising the vacancy at THAPYAYNU - YEAH I KNOW, WHAT A CHOICE OF PLACE TO GO WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD, RIGHT?

it definitely was a bad choice. our alredy-bad moods got worse after we'd gotten there. i mean plese, we were wearing t-shirts and long pants yah? and WE STILL GOT TEASED by some ASSHOLES. ywe` was so mad that she almost swore back at them. well, i'm just sick of people. so that was at peninsula. we came back to ywe's place, Tiong Bahru, and on the way home, we met some more perverted ASSHOLES alikes- not burmese this time. i dunnoe what the hell is wrong with guys nowadays? some too cocky, some too ignorant, some too perverted, some are just plain assholes and jerks. well, there may be guys who are really gentleman-like, and nice but that'd be like 20% of all. majority is stuck-up. sorry, i'm not being sexist but i SERIOUSLY do not understand *MALES* also known as *WEIRD CREATURES*. i dun care if no guy likes me because i said that, because i don't ACT cute or innocent, because i speak harshly, because i'm proud, because i don't agree to whatever they say,..

moreover, i can't act dumb cuz' i'm too damn smart to act dumb.. and because I have *self-respect* and *dignity*.. even if i like/love you to death, i won't ask you to stay or do anything without your will.. the kinda of people i hate most in the world is easy and cheap ppl.. and i can't let myself be one of them no matter how much i like you.. yes, i'm that proud and i'm not sweet either.. but as one of the quotes say, "if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best, too."

HATE is a strong wrong but I REALLY REALLY don't LIKE you, weird ITs.

>>and it really pisses me off when people take advantage of me being nice, and walk over me.. my mom always blames me for thinking of everyone the same as myself.. i always put myself in others shoes and think over and over again before i act on something, so that my action will not hurt anyone.. the more i try to un-hurt others, the more i keep hurting myself..

>>whenever i try to be nice to someone whole-heartedly, he/she somehow disappoints me.. i know it is too much of unreality to hope for the same kind of response from the other person, but all i wanted was "recognition" and "appreciation".. only if they appreciated how much I'd done for them, I'd be satisfied..

"So, people, beware now. I'm also human and there is a limit to everything. When you've gone over the limit, there is no turning back. If a time comes when I get sick of you, I will never turn back to you, not even for a glance."

today is the first day of school after CNY holidays.. personally i dun feeel like im out of holiday mood at all.. but i do respect those people who were able to shake themselves out of the mood and participate by saying either BS or sensible things.. because for some people like me, just getting ourselves to be in class for today was hard enough... haha

neway, ive been checking out a lot of music videos at youtube and realized i had a lot to catch up with Big Bang's songs.. if you haven't heard of Big Bang, you know you haven't been following Asian music trends closely.. its one of the very famous boyband in Korean or maybe the most famous one.. the last song of them i listened to was "Lies" and "Last Farewell".. later, i got caught up in other addictions like Twilight, R.Pats and some other movies so I didnt really rem to look up for their new songs.. they have quite a number songs that I haven't listened to __ Haru Haru, With you, Goodbye Baby and Always.. i rarely dislike their songs so all of them are great for me.. but if i've to pick the best two, it'd be Haru Haru and With you..

CHECK EM THE COOL MVS OUT *wink* ;)

BIG BANG is VIPS <3





The long-anticipated collaboration of Big Bang (top Kboyband) and Wonder Girl (top Kgirlband) had come. They had a joint performance at the MBC Gayo Daejun 2008 as they sang their hit songs.
Sun Ye and Tae Yang did Irony,
Yoo Bin and Seung Ri did Lies,
So Hee and G-Dragon did Tell Me,
Ye Eun and Daesung did Haru Haru
while Sun Mi did Nobody with T.O.P. Of course, it's AWESOME. There was a cross stage with Big Bang performing So Hot, guy version and then Wonder Girls finishing off with Last Farewell, girl version. I've been watching this video clip like five times a day. And do watch it in HIGH QUALITY. :) <3>

~*~*HANA YORI DANGO / BOYS OVER FLOWERS*~*~

JAPANESE VERSION <3>

this is the only drama i've watched repeatedly more than twice. yeah i know some of u may wonder why i would watch something that i've already watched again rite? especially when it is not a movie BUT a DRAMA. well, i just really enjoy it every time i watch it. i still dont get bored of it yet and i wonder if i ever will.

okay first of all, the ONE i like is the JAPANESE version. the season 1 was aired during 2005 and the season 2, during 2007, respectively. and if you guys remember, during 2008 september, the finale of this whole series, the movie "Hana Yori Dango: Final", was shown on cinemas here in Singapore. of course, i went and watched! (i can't believe the drama i really love is coming to an end.) FYI, there is also Taiwanese version called "Meteor Garden" where the popular Chinese Boy Band F4 was formed after they had appeared as members of "F4 / Flower 4" in the drama. Their appearance in the drama has resulted them in a lot of fame thus making their debut as F4 a success. neway, i dun really like them. lol.

KOREAN VERSION

now, a KOREAN version is OUT! it started airing just a few weeks ago. i didnt know about it until wai khaing phoo told me LOL. (she's in US and she knows and has watched whatever that's been out on the net!) thanks to her. i started watching it on www.mysoju.com two days ago. sadly, episode 6 is the latest available and i'm already done with it. so, i gotta wait for a week to see the next episode. =(

so far, i don't like the girl here Koo Hye Seon as much as Inoue Mao. she's a bit too old compared to the character and older than all the guys in the movie! (she's supposed to be younger than all, according to the story.) honestly, the japanese cast was awesome with their actings that now i feel this korean cast isn't good enough. i'd say all of the guys look pretty cutee, and Kim Bum acts well but still, I don't find Ji Hoo (Kim Hyun Joong) attractive enough for his role. he looks all weakkk and gay.ewww. look at the japanese version, Oguri Shun who played the same role is reallyy TALL AND HOT. after all, Lee Min Ho, the lead guy, makes this drama quite worth-watching and more bearable. FYI, he's only 87 born! hehe XD

so this is the music video of Jap Version I love

Planetarium - Otsuka Ai

Hana Yori Dango

Synopsis:
Makino Tsukushi is the only poor student at Eitoku Gakuen, the school of the ridiculously rich and privileged that is ruled by Flower 4 or F4, a group of four boys who come from extremely powerful families: Domyoji Tsukasa, the leader and heir of the Domyoji World Finance Group; Hanazawa Rui, the introverted son of a large company; Nishikado Sojiro, a player who is the heir of a tea ceremony school; and Mimasaka Akira, a madam killer with ties to the underground. If a student gets on the F4’s bad side, he/she gets a red notice and is bullied and driven out of school.
Makino hopes to pass her days quietly-- without drawing any attention to herself-- but one day, she stands up to Domyoji in defense of her friend. The next day, Makino gets the dreaded red notice. Even though she is harassed, Makino decides to keep going to school because she is a “tough weed”. She declares war right back on the F4. Her resolve gets the attention of her crush Hanazawa Rui and oddly enough, rouses romantic feelings in her worst enemy, Domyoji Tsukasa.
The series is based on the Japanese shoujo manga "Hana Yori Dango" (Boys Before Flowers) by Kamio Yoko.

P.S > I've been thinking recently why I always like to mention about weeds that will survive no matter what. hahaha so this is the reason. I really like how "weed" is presented here and its gotten too far in my mind. (weed=a wild plant growing where it is not wanted in competition with other well-cultivated plants, so LOL this is not the tobacco-related-weed you guys are thinking about.)

i know illness can be contagious by means of contact but what i didn't know is that we could get infected by hearing about someone else's illness too..

since a few days ago, one after another, a couple of my friends have been falling sick.. you know, i heard about them and was worried for them.. 

now here i am, awake at 4 o' clock in the morning cuz' i am feeling really really sick and can't sleep.. what am i to do? i have a class which i can't miss at 12 noon and have a gathering with some of my friends in the evening.. 

since i woke up this morning, i felt the pain in my throat and i did not feel like eating anything.. in the evening, i started to sneeze and felt fire blazing inside my body.. 

i thought its bcuz of the weather and showered and washed my hair for the second time! how stupid of me right?? yes, thanks to my stupidity. my body is burnnning hottt and aching.. :'( 

or as Nang and I were saying, I might have been caring too much for other people that I have totally forgotten about myself.. that's usually the case.. 

at times like these, i do miss my home.. there's not even one person to take care of me now.. and i can't cry to my parents not to send me to school lol ( what i always did).. now i'm all on my own as an adult.. without my will, i have to do things i'm supposed to do.. 

i'm sick but tomorrow i'll be going to school... *sniff* cuz' i can't miss it..

university student life suffers like hell~~ 

Don't Speak ( ဘာမွ မေၿပာပါနဲ ့ေတာ ့)

The song is rather old but I came across it only a few days ago. It hooked me up right away.. 

"Don't Speak" is the third single from Tragic Kingdom, the third album by Californian rock band No Doubt, released in 1996. Okay, a lilttle bit background about this song would make it more interesting, I think. In fact, this song was written by Gwen Stefani. It's about her break up with Bassist of the band, Tony Kanal whom she had been in a relationship for almost 7 years. Yeah I know, it must have been a tough situation right? She (who was kinda the lead of the band) wrote the song so the Bassist Tony still had to play it, knowing it's about them.

Don't just listen. Read the lyrics and you'll feel "the song". Me loving it. <3

Dont Speak - No Doubt

You and me

We used to be together

Everyday together always

I really feel

That I'm losin my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well, I don't want to know

Don't speak

I know just what you're sayin

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories

Well, they can be inviting

But some are altogether mighty

Frightening

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands

I sit and cry

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending

I gotta stop pretending who we are...

You and me

I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

And I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Don't tell me cause it hurts!

I know what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't speak,

don't speak,

don't speak,

oh I know what you're thinking

And I don't need your reasons

I know you're good,

I know you're good,

I know you're real good

Oh, la la la la la la

La la la la la

Don't, don't, uh-huh

Hush, hush darlin'

Hush, hush darlin'

Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Hush, hush darlin'

Hush, hush darlin'

Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Check out their live performance. One of the best live performances ever. She sounds exactly the same.

i didn't cry.. because nang and opal didn't want to see me cry. they'd be so sad to see me cry. i tried my best to hold back my tears and it worked! (although i became teary at times)

deepdown i'm hurt..

"it" has hurt my feelings, and my pride.. i almost begged "it"..

"it" just walked away.. *ouch* right at the heart..

"it" doesn't even care how i would feel if "it" did that..

i felt all sort of mixed emotions.. i mean no one had ever treated me that way..

i felt so mad, unappreciated, neglected and uncared..

i don't want pity or sympathy.. i just want sincerity.. i will survive like a weed no matter what..

ive been pretty emotional, whiny, and weepy lately ~ ~

my beloved brother going back to myanmar tmr, school works starting to pile up, feeling sickly and "အခ်စ္ေရးကလဲအဆင္မေၿပ.." 

"cedric" doesn't even see me in his eyes.. someone in his past has been shadowing over him.. and me? i'm dumber than the dumbest in these kinda things.. i just can't get beyond the question "how" and "should".. how do i talk to him? should i be friends with him, for real? should i call him first? GRHH -.-

i never knew it was THAT hard to like a person. 

i wish i could cry out loud but the tears just stuck in my eyes and don't come out to fall.. i wish i could hug "cedric" and cried as much as i want ='(

P.S > "cedric" is a nickname. it doesn't refer to any real cedric outside. a nickname fo my crush my friend nangy came out with. 

nang and opal. shhhhh. dont let others know how emo i can b or how often. =P

so what did i do for a relief? I SANG. if you dun know that part of about me yet, take note now. i love music and singing. dancing would be second in the priority list. 

can i sing? well, at least ppl know i'm singing when i sing haha. my friends say my key is a bit low for a girl but i like how it is (like i could change it hehe). some say i sing well, some say okay, and i once got a comment that i suck. i cant rem who it was but it was a guy for sure and he told me i sucked. i mean hello? im not singing for money or i'm not a profession either. its my hobby so imma do my thing. if they don't wanna listen, don't click on my songs. its as simple as that. ritee? =) 

anyway, here are some of the songs i did tonight. i think i did not bad. heees XD

Fairytale (Tong Hua Eng Version) - Kathryn

Who am I to say you love me? - Kathryn

I'm Missing You Nga Lwin. ~

WHO IS SHE? - she is a sister. she is a friend. she is a kid (but she's taller than most of us) lol. it's Lwin whom we all love.

dear sis,

no matter what happens, we've got your back. wint, ko chan nyein, me, ma may and nga tint, all of us, miss you. u gotta stay good, and work hard kay? so that u can come back here ASAP. and of cuz, we'll come and pick u up when u come back. :)

loves
xoxo

erghh. i'm having a headache or a nightmare seriously. its not about school or work or anything normal.

its about these anonymous calls i've been getting since 3 days ago. i mean, look. i'm not popular or anything like that so i can't think of why anonymous someone would wanna be friends with me? i know, scary right? well it might not sound scary at all for you. think it through again. the person from the other side knows all about you _ name, school, etc, etc and you know nothing about him. i dunnoe how the hell on this earth that person got my number and i'm gon kill the person who gave him my no. if i find out who.

he said he wanna be friends with me. i mean c'mon. there's no reason why i shud be friends with someone whose existence i didn't know about. i have no interest in making friends with some random strangers. who knows what their intentions are? if he thinks i'm one of those girls who will stay on phone for hours with no particular reason __ Q or flirt, he has picked the wrong person. i dun talk on ph for more than 30 mins EVEN with my closest friends. its been 3 days and he keeps calling and i keep hanging up or passing the phone to my friends. why is he that enthusiastic to disturb me? i dun know of any reason. SIGH. i'm frustrated. my ring tone is now haunting me. i almost jump whenever my phone rings. there's no reason to be scared right? i know ive such a weak heart. well if i've a chance to pass as msg to him, i wanna say, "don't waste time on me. i'm not interested in any business with you. so, move on to some other girl please."


i hope that anonymous person gives up soon. pals, wish fo me too. :'(

P.S> anonymous = without revealing any of your infos = rude = unfair hmpz!