Yes, I tend to be doubtful about every move of anyone who approaches me.
I always fear that the same kind of ugly ending would sneak up on me and I would once again have to go through the pain and embarrassment of losing someone I trusted wholeheartedly, to betrayal.
You may call me a paranoid, but I'm not depressed. I'm not emotional. Maybe, paranoid is just the perfect word to define my state.
The past relationship has left me with a pessimistic way of thinking regarding guys and relationships.
I constantly need reassurance that the specific person only has eyes for me and that I could entrust him my heart and everything I have.
And if that's too much to ask for, that's really okay for me.
I'm not a teenage girl who would be falling for sweet words or presents because I don't need any of them.
As a 21-year-old woman, I have grown strong and smart enough to find happiness, comfort, serenity, love and all I need in my beloved friends and family.
