Urghh now that I logged in.. I remember I have been silent for a while at my blog..

Nothing much changes except for the fact that school has started and things look a little more lively now.. Unlike in summer days when you can just tug in your bed all day and sleep days away.. Well, *pff* I'd rather have those dull and warm days to hectic school days.. You see, I'm not a loud or hyper person so I hate to step out of my comfort shell.. You may wonder why whichever topic I speak of school relates to something negative and the reason is classes in SMU always put my nerves at the stake of exploding with anxiety all the times!

Participation seems to be the core competency of SMU's advertised learning style that everyone is unconsciously forced to speak up their opinions (or sometimes-redecorated-opinions-of-others) in class.
[AGAIN, I sounded negative.]

No don't get me wrong yet. I LOVE MY SCHOOL! Who doesn't love his/her own school right? It's just that my school's environment clashes with my shy and introverted nature. On top of that, I took "Corporate Communication" as my second major! (Nice chocie! Sarcastically, I said to myself.)

Since young, I've loved literature especially in foreign languages and when I was deciding on my majors, I was very sure that Corp Comm Major was the one that would really interest me. The courses are indeed very knowledge-nourishing, vibrant-natured and interesting, as I expected. I just feel like I'm being pressured constantly throughout the classes to voice out... and what to do? I can't get over my shyness and public fright until now; I'm in my final year! This is so helpless, I think. Well, I've been complaining about myself over a billion times... I should just drop this topic and try my best to make do all of the Corp Comm modules I'm taking this semester~

xoxo
BTW people, I'm on twitter now @ http://twitter.com/katloveshome =)

THE SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD...

Since I met Nang on the other day, the song she let us listen with her phone got stuck in my head.

Have heard it many times before and liked it whenever I heard; yet could never figure out what that song was.

Many million thanks to Nang. I now know what the song is!

It's called INSOMNIA by Craig David. Here's its MTV. Enjoy~ xoxoxo

P.S Don't forget to stop the music player on my page before watching the vid! :)

Not Sorry At All

…

People ask;

Did I love you for who you are?

In the flashbacks,

I see you and me through good and bad times.

I recalled

Joys, laughters, fights and tears.

Apparently,

I loved you for who I perceived you to be.

Like a confirmation of those doubts in mind,

you grew to be a stranger in my eyes.

At the last shot, the wake-up call was harsh;

You betrayed and stabbed me from the back

Now that you are long gone,

And I have fallen out of my illusion.

Tell me why I should feel sorry?

Instead,

I should be counting my blessings.

. . . I Can't Hate You Anymore . . .

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,

Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.

Will I ever understand?

~A Stranger In My Life~

Sometimes I look at you and smile
With the thoughts of you, being mine..

Sometimes I look at you and cry
With the thoughts of loss, being wild..

You once told me
how there always was a return
for the true love that we yield..

Under your twisted words
I didn't know what was right or wrong
Or I pretended not to know..

The trust, the love, & the cherish
I gave to you in vain
Naively thinking I knew you like insane..

Now you say the same words
And I recalled the words you said
But they don't quite sound the same..

I look at you
Neither can I smile nor cry
Yet I see and feel an eternal darkness..

After everything I gave up for you,
A cruel intention that you had for me
Was to wonder who was sitting next to me..

And I heard myself whisper,
"A stranger in my life."

A Cold Corner of Life

Whenever I feel scared

and there is no one to give me courage.. 

Whenever I fall down

and there is no one to pull me up.. 

Whenever I feel sad 

and there is no shoulder to cry on.. 

Whenever I have to walk a long way alone,

through the darkness and rain,

with no one watching over me..

Whenever I feel sick 

and there’s no one to take care of me.. 

I tell myself, 

"You are just learning a part of growing up in this cold and cruel world."

Alex "If it's you" (그대라면) (English Subtitles)

At the first moment I saw you..
Many thoughts rushed into my head..
While a part of me is saying NO,
a very much stronger part of me is saying YES

If its you, forever is possible..
It is like I dreamed you into my life and you came alive..
You are not near anything I have imagined my right one to be..
And your heart already belongs to someone else..

But if its you, forgiving is more than easy..
Your smile and laughter comes before anything else..
You once said love you knew was giving not taking..
Being able to have you besides me as a friend already feels like a paradise..

I just never knew..
putting up a smile, when you talk about her,
would become the hardest part of living my life..