Fated to Love You!<3

Extremely hooked up by this taiwanese drama which i started watching two days ago. it's one of the most popular dramas currently and its rating has gone above the record in taiwanese dramas. it has 24 episodes and now i'm on ep 21! lol yay i'm going to finish it soon and it'd betta be a happy ending! i hate dramas with sad endings cuz' even after watching, i'd still feel very very sad for the rest of the day. rofl. i know im crazy. take note if you haven't known that fact about me lol. i have a very soft spot for dramas and sometimes when i'm very into the drama or the characters, i go thru all sorta emotion states lol I cry, laugh out and get mad while watching and i'm into most of em. hahaha. 

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i dunnoe i just find this movie TOO CUTE! so far. (i haven't watched till e end)

and i'd recommend you guys to watch this movie. it's entertaining, light-hearted and yet deep and if  you can learn, there are certain lessons about life presented. 

it's a quirky version of the cinderella story where in the very first episode, the Prince Charming(Ethan Ruan) rescues Cinderella(Chen Qiao En) from her evil boyfriend. Made her shine as a princess who always lacks confidence in herself. Be it fate or accident, he happened to sleep with her, and knocked her up (oops). Okay I dun wanna spoil the movie so i'm not telling you what the rest of the story is gonna be like. but def, it's worth trying and it's different in terms of plotting from other cinderella-story-kinda dramas. mixture of comedy and romance. you'll have a good time watching it im sure. and the great chemistry between the leads is surely captivating me. not to mention, 

Ethan Ruan is super x100000000 HOT!

seriously, throughout the movie, i cry if he cries, i smile if he smiles and i laugh if he laughs. haha i think if i met him outside, i'd faint or be stunned for mins, with my jaws dropped, not bleeding nose thou. lol! i've seen a lot of dramas and i admit i've liked most of the lead guys in em. but he's got the greatest body i've ever seen!! yes, he's tall def higher than 6 feet. (186cm). why? why? *tears* there is no such perfect dude around me! okies this sound a bit perverted. guys, i was just joking okay? XD

if you think im a bit over-praising about this, lol you should check the drama out yourself and we'll see whether you get hooked up too~ 

Last night I was trying to find news articles for my assignments and I came across this recent article which is about marches of thousands of people in East Los Angeles who are against the proposition 8, a proposal on last week's election ballot to re-write the state's constitution to redefine marriage as the union of a man and a woman only. 

You can find the article here http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/7723645.stm 

This is so inhuman to tie down humans by laws like marrying someone that the society disapproves is a crime. If you search for the word "marriage" in dictionary, its meaning of long-term relationship or union of two individuals is no longer limited to only people of different sex. You will find that marriage can exist or be defined between the individuals of same sex as well. Okies, now some of you may say same-sex marriages are just abnormal, queer or ungodly. On which ground you are standing? Isn't it all about your own personal preference? You are just making judgements and conclusions about what is right and wrong for other tailored to your very own beliefs and values. 

Consequently, the extreme religious views contribute a lot to the disapproval of same-sex marriages. In codes of most religions, marriage is just meant for a male and a female and "same-sex marriage is sinful". 

So, now, let us forget about the genders for a min. 

Just imagine yourself born in a world where only homosexuals and same-sex marriage exist but you fell in love with someone of different sex. Would  you still say it is morally justifiable to ban people from marrying those whom they love just because majority does not feel it is a right thing to do so? Given the above instance, I'm sure most of us would say NO undoubtedly. That is why I hate the rules of majority that say you are wrong because you are different from them. 

Sharing my current favourite song with you guys~ ENJOY!



Soba Ni Iru Ne *I'll be by your side* AOYAMA THELMA

anata no koto (wata)shi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo
Even now, I'm still thinking of you
ikura toki nagareteyukou to I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY itsudemo
Don’t matter how long it takes I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY at any time
SO. donna ni hanarete iyou to
SO. However far apart we are
kokoro no naka dewa itsudemo isshoni iru kedo samishiin dayo
In my heart, we’ll always be together But I’m so lonely
SO BABY PLEASE tada HURRY BACK HOME
So baby please, just HURRY BACK HOME

BABY BOY atashi wa koko ni iruyo doko mo ikazu ni matteruyo
BABY BOY I’ll be right here.Won’t go anywhere, I’ll be waiting for you
YOU KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU dakara koso shinpai shinak(u)te iindayo
YOU KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU so there’s no need for you to worry
donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranaiyo kono kokoro
No matter the distance, this heart of mine won’t change
iitai koto wakaru desho?
You know what I’m trying to say, right?
anata no koto matteru yo
I’m waiting for you

The Epiphany

Sometimes I do not realize myself, for a certain period, I'd been lost.

I'd been feeling stressed about this particular relationship-related thing. I was hesitant and reluctant to do what I'm supposed to do.

"NO" would be the last word I'd want out of my mouth. As much as I hate being rejected myself, I do not want to say NO to anyone __ I do not want to hurt their feelings or dignities. Nonetheless, you inevitably have to say it at times to avoid worse outcomes there may be. By any mean, it is just hard for me to do so and I'd been pondering and pondering over the possible alternatives.

This evening, I talked to Nang, Kelly, Swan Htet and my cousin about what was troubling me. They all came to the same conclusion that I should be strong and decisive and I should rather face it and express my feelings honestly than running in a circle, taking too much time just to figure out a fair and happy ending which might not exist. Then, I thought about it and they are right. I have invested too much time and what solution did I find? Nothing.

Okay I took a deep breath down, chilled and got myself clear-headed. Only at that point, I realized the will of not hurting someone could in fact make the things more complicated and got the parties involved hurt more in the end. Another thing is precious time of his and mine I have wasted. After a while, say a few more months, this whole total thing would not even occur to us anymore. So, as my dear ones suggested, I am gonna make things clear ASAP so that the negative impact on both of us would be at its least.

*C'mon Kathryn. You can do it! You are not weak! You've the guts to speak your mind and heart! AZA AZA FIGHTING!* lol

I've been enlightened at last. I have soaked myself in this thing too much. Now it's time for me to cast this out of my mind and carry on with my normal happy 'single' life. ( LOL I know it need not be mentioned but oh well, what's wrong with saying I'm single cuz' I'm single?) :P

P.S>> Thanks to my dearies and bro for dawning an epiphany on me. Me now feeling light with no guilt and stress~ ^^

Time for updates!

okies i have been lazy to update my blog and nang's been complaining about it. lol.

for the present, i feel quite relaxed and happy cuz' i'm pretty much done for this week. only left with retail management report to get done by this weekend and slides for ethics presentation by friday. this amount of work is nothing compared to what I had to bear on previous week until yesterday. i had less than 3 hours sleep everyday and had to remind myself constantly that i should at least have one meal a day. or else, people will begin to think i'm anorexic -.-

everyone i meet in school nowadays has been telling me the same thing. either " you are sooo thin!" or "you've got thinner babe!"  and i hate to be told how I've slimmed down! this might be sort of a good news for most of the girls to hear but definitely not for me. i dun wanna be thinner than this and my one and only concern i have with my appearance is the weight loss. certain ppl take months to lose just a few lbs. whereas for me, it's rather too fast and easy to lose a couple of lbs and it takes me ages to regain the weight i've lost! 

so, i decided that i'd change my daily eating and sleeping routines as follows:

1. no staying up after 12 midnite ( until 2am still sounds ok )
2. at least two seperate meals a day (no break+lunch+dinner) 
3. substitute mineral water instead of coffee and tea ( as much water as possible) 
4. no more instant noodles ( once or twice a week is allowed) 
5. consume more vegetables than meat

it's not too bad yet as long as i can behave accordingly to two or three of these. haha!

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later today, i'm going to watch the new james bond show with james. i haven't been to cinema in ages, like more than two months? that's how i'd been obsessed with school. so, this show'd better be a good one. lol! oh and nangy and my other friends, rara, maw gyi and ye htet win are going to catch it as well. let's wait and see if we'd bump into one another haha. and that has a very high possibility. 

kk now im logging offf ~  ( a very abrupt way to end a post) hahaha!

The Unconscious Soul

~THE UNCONSCIOUS SOUL~

Unconsciously,

Out of all the people,

I started to recognize your existence..

Unconsciously,

Out of all the things,

I started to care even the littlest ones 'bout you..

Unconsciously,

Despite a long tiring day,

I started to stay up late just to see you online..

Unconsciously,

Whenever coincidences exist,

I started to reminisce the moments I shared with you..

Be that as it may,

My consciousness is back;

Yet it is of no use, at the present..

Upon realizing that,

I have indeed fallen in love with you

Unconsciously..

~THE END~

I keep messing things up =(

Well first I thought I wouldn't write anything emo here. 

But here it comes, my messed-up day.. 

My mind must have been distorted by all the assignments and exams lately. I'm not in my right mind. Until yesterday evening, I knew I have Ethics Class at 12 noon today.

It's been all normal anddd.. this morning when I woke up at 10 am, I had this feeling that Thursday and Friday are the hols of this week __ I don't have anything on, no meeting, no class, no whatsoever..  (In my thoughts: oh yeah, I'm free all day. why should I get up so early? Okies I'll just go bak to sleep.. *GRINS*) In the end, I woke up in the middle of the afternoon, sweating and shouting "NOOOO I MISSED ANOTHER CLASS AGAIN!!"

-.- Now you know how very dense a girl I can be sometimes. It just totally slipped my mind. SIGH.

So, this class will be the 4th class I missed for this subject and how to face my prof and classmates! WARRRH ='( 

See. I didn't mean to but I keep messing things up and this is just one of my normal messed-up days~ ~

Kat ---> the biggest PIG on earth