Today, I read a line in my assigned Intel case that says, " If no one thinks a marketing campaign is crazy, then maybe we haven't gone far enough."
I really liked how it's been said. Razor-sharp.
I come out with my own thinking that.. if everyone agrees to my idea, maybe I haven't been creative enough or vice versa, just because someone opposes my idea, it doesn't mean my idea isn't fantastic!
Just some random thoughts. Going for quiz now. :)
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
ONE DAY IF I FELL OUT OF SENSES..
Dear you~
here's what you gotta do if one day I fell out of my senses and..
walked away from you, don't let me go..
even if I locked eyes with another guy, look only at me..
even if I told you to leave, stand only besides me..
even if I told you to forget about me, miss only me..
even if i hanged up on you, don't stop calling me..
most importantly, no matter what "if"s happen, don't stop loving me..
'cause only you who tripped me to fall in love, can bring me back to life. <3
make me believe in us again.
here's what you gotta do if one day I fell out of my senses and..
walked away from you, don't let me go..
even if I locked eyes with another guy, look only at me..
even if I told you to leave, stand only besides me..
even if I told you to forget about me, miss only me..
even if i hanged up on you, don't stop calling me..
most importantly, no matter what "if"s happen, don't stop loving me..
'cause only you who tripped me to fall in love, can bring me back to life. <3
make me believe in us again.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
I Can't Find Logics
It hasn't been long that I said how I was still in holiday mood. And I think the devils heard me.
Here they come. The projects! Deadlines! Presentations! May Buddha bless me and help me get through my final term.
It's 12:40 am and I just got back home. Since 8 am, I'd been in school then I went to help out at my part-time work as my manager is in need of staff. I stayed at work for 4 hours and came back to school for Korean Language Workshop hosted by Woori Sayi, a Korean Culture Club, which I'm a member of. It was quite fun actually. Maybe because it is the language I'm really interested in, I didn't find myself tired at all though I had a long day. The class was from 7 to 9 pm. Till then, I hadn't had a proper meal. Two curry puffs, two cups of coffee and a chicken pao kept me survive until I could find a time to have a proper meal. My friend, Jace, was kind enough to accompany me and had another meal with me again although she'd eaten not long before. It was very sweet. =]
(Afterward, I had to stay back in school till 11: 45 pm to finish at my work. When I came back from the library, I had to walk alone all the way to the bus stop. Quite creepy.)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I remember every little nice thing people do for me. I don't usually ask people what I want them to do for me, because I think only something done out of their own will is sincere and priceless.
I am very moved if someone gets out of his/her way to do a small thing for me.
I am the kind of person who tries very hard to detach myself emotionally from people. I have tried to treat people, just on the superficial level but never did I succeed. In fact, I have a very soft heart which gets crushed as easily as it can love many things. So, I've become a control freak of my own emotions and I tend to be very reserved unless my instincts like/trust one person. My brain and heart always contradict one another.
Now I face another dilemma. A struggle between heart and brain.
I have a few friends whom I tell every single thing. I trust them but I wanna trust in the instincts of my heart too.
They think I am being crazy to actually trust or get too involved with someone whom I cannot guarantee about anything.
I think I know enough but I never knew enough when it comes to judging people.
I have already found my way to be happy again.
I wanna learn to trust again.
I wanna learn to love again.
I wanna learn to commit again.
Unless it's the right person, I am not gonna do all those.
Well, maybe "love" is a "big fat" word, which is too early to be said at this moment.
At least, I want "TRUST" and I want to be "SOMEONE" and not just anyone in that person's life. All I know is I care for that person and yes, it's as pure as that is.
I am not even sure if I would need any other form of feelings rather than friendship...
For the people I care about too deeply, I am not as greedy 'cause I'm afraid to lose them.
I would rather save the best possible and safest state of our attachment.
Be it friendship, I'll be happy.
Urghh. My mind is tired. My body can't move. It's signs that say I should go to bed. Good night.
I'll be fine tomorrow at the presentation! ^__^
Anyonghi jumuseyo! [Figure out what they are on your own~]
Here they come. The projects! Deadlines! Presentations! May Buddha bless me and help me get through my final term.
It's 12:40 am and I just got back home. Since 8 am, I'd been in school then I went to help out at my part-time work as my manager is in need of staff. I stayed at work for 4 hours and came back to school for Korean Language Workshop hosted by Woori Sayi, a Korean Culture Club, which I'm a member of. It was quite fun actually. Maybe because it is the language I'm really interested in, I didn't find myself tired at all though I had a long day. The class was from 7 to 9 pm. Till then, I hadn't had a proper meal. Two curry puffs, two cups of coffee and a chicken pao kept me survive until I could find a time to have a proper meal. My friend, Jace, was kind enough to accompany me and had another meal with me again although she'd eaten not long before. It was very sweet. =]
(Afterward, I had to stay back in school till 11: 45 pm to finish at my work. When I came back from the library, I had to walk alone all the way to the bus stop. Quite creepy.)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I remember every little nice thing people do for me. I don't usually ask people what I want them to do for me, because I think only something done out of their own will is sincere and priceless.
I am very moved if someone gets out of his/her way to do a small thing for me.
I am the kind of person who tries very hard to detach myself emotionally from people. I have tried to treat people, just on the superficial level but never did I succeed. In fact, I have a very soft heart which gets crushed as easily as it can love many things. So, I've become a control freak of my own emotions and I tend to be very reserved unless my instincts like/trust one person. My brain and heart always contradict one another.
Now I face another dilemma. A struggle between heart and brain.
I have a few friends whom I tell every single thing. I trust them but I wanna trust in the instincts of my heart too.
They think I am being crazy to actually trust or get too involved with someone whom I cannot guarantee about anything.
I think I know enough but I never knew enough when it comes to judging people.
I have already found my way to be happy again.
I wanna learn to trust again.
I wanna learn to love again.
I wanna learn to commit again.
Unless it's the right person, I am not gonna do all those.
Well, maybe "love" is a "big fat" word, which is too early to be said at this moment.
At least, I want "TRUST" and I want to be "SOMEONE" and not just anyone in that person's life. All I know is I care for that person and yes, it's as pure as that is.
I am not even sure if I would need any other form of feelings rather than friendship...
For the people I care about too deeply, I am not as greedy 'cause I'm afraid to lose them.
I would rather save the best possible and safest state of our attachment.
Be it friendship, I'll be happy.
Urghh. My mind is tired. My body can't move. It's signs that say I should go to bed. Good night.
I'll be fine tomorrow at the presentation! ^__^
Anyonghi jumuseyo! [Figure out what they are on your own~]
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Tides Are High
SIGH. so many shits going on at this moment. and i thought i was strong.
but maybe not strong enough. here i am feeling all stressed out, frustrated and blue.. i dunnoe whom to talk to. it's like there are hundreds, hundreds of people around me but.. when i turn around to hold on to or open my heart to, my vision has blurred out.. am i being too secretive? or too scared to trust anyone? or am i scared that people will find out how my life is not so-uncool as they think mine is? more than once, i've said how people around me put up too many labels on me when most of the labels don't describe any part of me.. and how people have rather too high expectations on me.. it's not that i'm not confident about myself; it's just the truth i cannot live up to everyone's expectations and hopes.. STOP.
i really love my family, more than anything else but.. there are some family matters that stress me out so much.. on the outside, i'm a bubbly, fun-loving, crazy, random soul like anyone else... but inside, my heart is heavy.. it's full of worries for my future, my dream and my family.. i never thought i needed someone to be part of my life.. but at times like this, i feel so lost on my own like i feel i need someone whom i can tell my everything, who won't judge me, but still cherish me and constantly remind me that i'll be okay.. well, friends? i do have very good friends (i love my friends) and i know i can rely on them.. why am i so taken aback to talk to them? i don't have an answer.. maybe i don't want to make em worried for me when everyone has his own mess to take care of.. i don't wanna be a burden, adding onto my friend's worries.. STOP.
so what do i do? current mood: very frustrated, stressed and sad.
it's been such a long time i feel this down. how bad? a social-networkaholic me didn't even go to facebook or g talk since i got back from work.. and right now, where i wanna be is somewhere peaceful, like a meditation centre maybe.. leave me alone people.
31st Jan 2010
but maybe not strong enough. here i am feeling all stressed out, frustrated and blue.. i dunnoe whom to talk to. it's like there are hundreds, hundreds of people around me but.. when i turn around to hold on to or open my heart to, my vision has blurred out.. am i being too secretive? or too scared to trust anyone? or am i scared that people will find out how my life is not so-uncool as they think mine is? more than once, i've said how people around me put up too many labels on me when most of the labels don't describe any part of me.. and how people have rather too high expectations on me.. it's not that i'm not confident about myself; it's just the truth i cannot live up to everyone's expectations and hopes.. STOP.
i really love my family, more than anything else but.. there are some family matters that stress me out so much.. on the outside, i'm a bubbly, fun-loving, crazy, random soul like anyone else... but inside, my heart is heavy.. it's full of worries for my future, my dream and my family.. i never thought i needed someone to be part of my life.. but at times like this, i feel so lost on my own like i feel i need someone whom i can tell my everything, who won't judge me, but still cherish me and constantly remind me that i'll be okay.. well, friends? i do have very good friends (i love my friends) and i know i can rely on them.. why am i so taken aback to talk to them? i don't have an answer.. maybe i don't want to make em worried for me when everyone has his own mess to take care of.. i don't wanna be a burden, adding onto my friend's worries.. STOP.
so what do i do? current mood: very frustrated, stressed and sad.
it's been such a long time i feel this down. how bad? a social-networkaholic me didn't even go to facebook or g talk since i got back from work.. and right now, where i wanna be is somewhere peaceful, like a meditation centre maybe.. leave me alone people.
31st Jan 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tears or Blood
"Tears are the purest form of blood drops that come straight out of your heart..." I'd say.
That's why we feel like our hearts are being crushed when we cry.. I don't know about you. I hardly cry (Crying for movies and books, doesn't count xD ) and when I cry, it is something really BIG that I cannot hide it in anymore. It does feel like my heart is being burnt or is disintegrating into pieces..
I haven't cried in such a long time.. because my heart is too weak to shed any blood anymore. Maybe it's become numb to feel any pain. The heart-wrenching feeling that I had to go through was intense and I never want to feel that again. Even if I just think back on those times, my heart can faintly recall its wounds but they are not as fresh and painful as before __ just a little bit of sting.
I am the person who hates being depressed or emotional. I'd always try to be a cheerful person around my friends and with myself too. I am only happy when people around me are happy. Ultra-sensitive? LOL. It's hard though. There are times I broke down and felt like I was choking or suffocated. Still, I did not shed a tear. A food for thoughts: people used to say you would feel things have gotten off your chest after you've cried... so is that the reason why I've been feeling suffocated too often nowadays?
I'm stressed. I cannot put my finger on what's making me this much stressed. Is it school, with graduation thingy and aftermath? Is it about balancing my job and school at the same time? Is it because I'm constantly worried about my parents nonetheless? Is it the high expectation my parents tagged at me? I'm afraid I would not be good enough for them.
I am naive (DUMB). I am indecisive. I am hesitant. I am fearful. Maybe my mom shouldn't have taught me to become a very "nice" or "sincere" person; people rip me off_ they reaped what I sowed and some people in my past have done the worst thing they could do to me. I have given a thought to revenging them but in the end, I did not do anything. There is this thing called Karma which they can't run away from. Either in this life or next life, they'll get what they deserve. I do not need to witness them fall and revenging them would not make me feel any happier. I just wanna stay clean and pure as of now.
To my pleasant surprise, I have recently discovered this dim light that was keeping me truly happy. It's far, very far from me. It's very faint. It does not belong to me as of now. It can only be visible once in a while. But once I see it, I know I gotta move on and feel as if some blissful future awaits me. More than once, I had thought I was dreaming. In fact, it's real because I can only feel its existence when I'm awake. I have never believed that something intangible could create such effects on me. I feel safe when I see it. And, I don't know how long it's gonna be there for me. It scares me because I do not want to be so reliant upon that; what if it disappears one day? I don't wanna let my guard down... Once I did, and I'm still recovering from my grand failure as a result of trusting easily and too much. I have been standing alone for as long as I can remember; it is really cold at times, with no one whom I can truly open up to. I don't want just anyone to hold but a person who can truly accept me for who I am. I am tired of expectations.
Good night, world...
P.S I'm not emo. LOL.
That's why we feel like our hearts are being crushed when we cry.. I don't know about you. I hardly cry (Crying for movies and books, doesn't count xD ) and when I cry, it is something really BIG that I cannot hide it in anymore. It does feel like my heart is being burnt or is disintegrating into pieces..
I haven't cried in such a long time.. because my heart is too weak to shed any blood anymore. Maybe it's become numb to feel any pain. The heart-wrenching feeling that I had to go through was intense and I never want to feel that again. Even if I just think back on those times, my heart can faintly recall its wounds but they are not as fresh and painful as before __ just a little bit of sting.
I am the person who hates being depressed or emotional. I'd always try to be a cheerful person around my friends and with myself too. I am only happy when people around me are happy. Ultra-sensitive? LOL. It's hard though. There are times I broke down and felt like I was choking or suffocated. Still, I did not shed a tear. A food for thoughts: people used to say you would feel things have gotten off your chest after you've cried... so is that the reason why I've been feeling suffocated too often nowadays?
I'm stressed. I cannot put my finger on what's making me this much stressed. Is it school, with graduation thingy and aftermath? Is it about balancing my job and school at the same time? Is it because I'm constantly worried about my parents nonetheless? Is it the high expectation my parents tagged at me? I'm afraid I would not be good enough for them.
I am naive (DUMB). I am indecisive. I am hesitant. I am fearful. Maybe my mom shouldn't have taught me to become a very "nice" or "sincere" person; people rip me off_ they reaped what I sowed and some people in my past have done the worst thing they could do to me. I have given a thought to revenging them but in the end, I did not do anything. There is this thing called Karma which they can't run away from. Either in this life or next life, they'll get what they deserve. I do not need to witness them fall and revenging them would not make me feel any happier. I just wanna stay clean and pure as of now.
To my pleasant surprise, I have recently discovered this dim light that was keeping me truly happy. It's far, very far from me. It's very faint. It does not belong to me as of now. It can only be visible once in a while. But once I see it, I know I gotta move on and feel as if some blissful future awaits me. More than once, I had thought I was dreaming. In fact, it's real because I can only feel its existence when I'm awake. I have never believed that something intangible could create such effects on me. I feel safe when I see it. And, I don't know how long it's gonna be there for me. It scares me because I do not want to be so reliant upon that; what if it disappears one day? I don't wanna let my guard down... Once I did, and I'm still recovering from my grand failure as a result of trusting easily and too much. I have been standing alone for as long as I can remember; it is really cold at times, with no one whom I can truly open up to. I don't want just anyone to hold but a person who can truly accept me for who I am. I am tired of expectations.
Good night, world...
P.S I'm not emo. LOL.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I dont like being parted from people I'm dear to.
11:58 PM
I'm feeling irresistibly sleepy right now which is strange 'cause I slept the whole afternoon since I came back from school. Could it be due to the chili crabs I ate at the dinner or is it a sign that I have been lacking so much sleep during past few days? -.- Anyway, today was rather short, I went to consumer behavior class in the morning, not mine thou. Mine actually starts at 10:15 am and I attened the one that starts at 8:30 am 'cause I find my class boring with no one I know but 8:30 class has my Burmese friends. =) Friends always make the class more bearable.
12:10 AM To continue..
The day was short 'cause I really enjoyed today! Tetee, his younger brother Annku, and their parents are here. They are sending off Annku who is going to college in the states. If I'm not wrong, it's LA East Side College that he got in. Finally, a kid (a kid who is not really a kid hahaha) is going away to study and we all are happy but kinda worried too but oh well, let's hope and pray that he'll be fine. =)
Tetee <3 Our beloved wat-ka-lay is finally back to us! It's been almost a year he left Singapore and Ra, Maw Gyi and me. Four of us used to go to everywhere altogether and without him, when we go out now, it always feels like we are missing something, someone to be exact. Weeeeee~ today feels very complete! Tetee's family and three of us strolled around in Orchard, did some shopping and had a very awesome dinner together! Our favourite "CHILI CRABS" - one Singapore's siganature dish.. hmm and we wanted to catch a movie but it got too late after dinner and Tetee's parents wanted all of em to go back to their Hotel together. Our plan was ruined. T_T So, Ra, Maw Gyi and I came back to our house lifelessly. Maybe, tomorrow after our works, we will try to plan a time to catch a movie with Tetee since he's going back on the day after tomorrow. I don't LIKEEE. =( I wish he could've stayed longer with us.
Oh, today I called my mom in the afternoon but she was busy so I couldn't talk to her much. She was at the Court for the case she's taking care of for one of her clients. I don't know since when she started taking cases... That worries me because being a lawyer aint' easy. There'll be people from the opposition party who dislike you and stuffs. But then again, without Dad around, she must be bored at home, alone with my younger brother everyday. So, I'm just gonna pray for her. =) So that, she would be safe and sound, and win her cases. <3
Got a message from Dad too. He's sailing to India. That's all I know of now. I am gon try calling him tomorrow to know more details. I miss him big time. He's been really working hard for our family__always onboard; I haven't seen him since his visit in my first year of college. I'm graduating soon (if everything goes fine e.g, internship thingy) and I'll get to see him again in my graduation! <3 Can't wait till then. =)
P.S. Good luck to a friend who's having a bio test tomorrow. I prayed for you. =)
Yuppp I think that's fairly everything about today and now I shall go to bed. I have to work from 1-9 pm tomorrow. Good night, world~
I'm feeling irresistibly sleepy right now which is strange 'cause I slept the whole afternoon since I came back from school. Could it be due to the chili crabs I ate at the dinner or is it a sign that I have been lacking so much sleep during past few days? -.- Anyway, today was rather short, I went to consumer behavior class in the morning, not mine thou. Mine actually starts at 10:15 am and I attened the one that starts at 8:30 am 'cause I find my class boring with no one I know but 8:30 class has my Burmese friends. =) Friends always make the class more bearable.
12:10 AM To continue..
The day was short 'cause I really enjoyed today! Tetee, his younger brother Annku, and their parents are here. They are sending off Annku who is going to college in the states. If I'm not wrong, it's LA East Side College that he got in. Finally, a kid (a kid who is not really a kid hahaha) is going away to study and we all are happy but kinda worried too but oh well, let's hope and pray that he'll be fine. =)
Tetee <3 Our beloved wat-ka-lay is finally back to us! It's been almost a year he left Singapore and Ra, Maw Gyi and me. Four of us used to go to everywhere altogether and without him, when we go out now, it always feels like we are missing something, someone to be exact. Weeeeee~ today feels very complete! Tetee's family and three of us strolled around in Orchard, did some shopping and had a very awesome dinner together! Our favourite "CHILI CRABS" - one Singapore's siganature dish.. hmm and we wanted to catch a movie but it got too late after dinner and Tetee's parents wanted all of em to go back to their Hotel together. Our plan was ruined. T_T So, Ra, Maw Gyi and I came back to our house lifelessly. Maybe, tomorrow after our works, we will try to plan a time to catch a movie with Tetee since he's going back on the day after tomorrow. I don't LIKEEE. =( I wish he could've stayed longer with us.
Oh, today I called my mom in the afternoon but she was busy so I couldn't talk to her much. She was at the Court for the case she's taking care of for one of her clients. I don't know since when she started taking cases... That worries me because being a lawyer aint' easy. There'll be people from the opposition party who dislike you and stuffs. But then again, without Dad around, she must be bored at home, alone with my younger brother everyday. So, I'm just gonna pray for her. =) So that, she would be safe and sound, and win her cases. <3
Got a message from Dad too. He's sailing to India. That's all I know of now. I am gon try calling him tomorrow to know more details. I miss him big time. He's been really working hard for our family__always onboard; I haven't seen him since his visit in my first year of college. I'm graduating soon (if everything goes fine e.g, internship thingy) and I'll get to see him again in my graduation! <3 Can't wait till then. =)
P.S. Good luck to a friend who's having a bio test tomorrow. I prayed for you. =)
Yuppp I think that's fairly everything about today and now I shall go to bed. I have to work from 1-9 pm tomorrow. Good night, world~
Monday, January 25, 2010
So, I Was Reborn
FINALLY, I have recovered my knowledge in personalizing a blog skin!!
Well, I have a class at 8:30 tomorrow morning.
Mr. Seshami's Consumer Behaviour Class.
I have been meaning to hit the sack sine 12 but I just can't sleep when I feel like I have something to get done, like having to get my blog a new skin and restarted 'cause the old skin is not working properly anymore~ ~ ~ It's pretty sad that it died. I liked my previous blog skin a lot. That's me. I always feel very attached to old belongings of mine. Again, it reminds me of some part of the past I don't wanna remember. In that sense, probably it was a good riddance.
Yes, I only turn to blog when I am feeling suffocated with stuffs I hold in, and when I have things to unravel on my own.
I am not a very good communicator when it comes to expressing emotions and I have pretty fast mood swings so, it's more than nice that I've got a blog where I can rant or complain or whatever.
Even if I talk to my friends, majority of em wouldn't get me right; except Eiphyo, my BFF, my soulmate, LOL, who would always gets me easily without many words being said.
. . . . . . . . .
Anyway, yeah, I think it's good that I'm blogging again. . .
My friends can keep up with me and people can stalk me and stuffs haha I'm just kidding. . .
I don't have stalkers (I hope I don't). . .
It's time for bed. I don't want to miss any class again. I'll be good. =]
Good night, World~
Well, I have a class at 8:30 tomorrow morning.
Mr. Seshami's Consumer Behaviour Class.
I have been meaning to hit the sack sine 12 but I just can't sleep when I feel like I have something to get done, like having to get my blog a new skin and restarted 'cause the old skin is not working properly anymore~ ~ ~ It's pretty sad that it died. I liked my previous blog skin a lot. That's me. I always feel very attached to old belongings of mine. Again, it reminds me of some part of the past I don't wanna remember. In that sense, probably it was a good riddance.
Yes, I only turn to blog when I am feeling suffocated with stuffs I hold in, and when I have things to unravel on my own.
I am not a very good communicator when it comes to expressing emotions and I have pretty fast mood swings so, it's more than nice that I've got a blog where I can rant or complain or whatever.
Even if I talk to my friends, majority of em wouldn't get me right; except Eiphyo, my BFF, my soulmate, LOL, who would always gets me easily without many words being said.
. . . . . . . . .
Anyway, yeah, I think it's good that I'm blogging again. . .
My friends can keep up with me and people can stalk me and stuffs haha I'm just kidding. . .
I don't have stalkers (I hope I don't). . .
It's time for bed. I don't want to miss any class again. I'll be good. =]
Good night, World~
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)